A few more days and we're gonna be celebrating your birthday, my Drummer boy.
Lots of things remind me of you. Everytime I remember you, I cant help but smile. Good memories, Drummie. I know that you'd want me to smile always, and that's what I've been doing. I miss you a lot, Drummie. I miss hanging out with you, and if things went differently, maybe we would have made more special memories together. We'll never know now, huh? I'm glad to have met you, and be your bestfriend. I miss walking into your front door and you would hug me real tight and not let go. I miss you very much, my Drummie. I know I wasnt the sweetest person you know, but somehow, every touch and look that I shot your way, you seemed to understand how much you meant to me.
You were always there for me, you always knew when I needed a hug or be left alone. I got used to you just looking at me from the corner of your room as I curl up into a ball or hug my knees on the other corner. You always knew when to call or text me. It felt like I just needed to wish that you would call me and then my phone would be ringing. Fun times.
I miss listening to you play the drums or your guitar. I like it when you play your guitar on a rainy day, and that you sing really well. I miss looking through your notes and telling you that I can barely understand what you've written, even if I can decipher it. LOL. I miss the times when you would look for me and ask to copy the notes I might have written, then look at you squinting coz I always use pencil for my notes. I loved the times when you would research the books I needed without me asking you to. I miss our movie marathons whenever we decided to skip classes the whole day. I miss eating lunch with you, especially when you take all the veggies from my food. I miss leaning my head on your back when I'm tired, then you would turn around and give me a tight hug.
I miss you, Drummie. I wish I never walked away when you asked me to. I wish I stayed around, even if you didnt want me to. I wish I spent the last two years of your life with you. It would have been really fun. But then, maybe our separation was a good thing too, coz you know how I suck at goodbyes. Maybe this happened so I wont be crying too much, or be depressed. The funny thing is, Drummer Boy, I still cried a lot. And I got depressed. And I am still wishing I couldve have hugged you before you left. The hugs you would ask everytime we see each other, a kiss on your cheek when you're down, and how hard I squeeze you when it was Friday coz we knew we wont be seeing each other during the weekend.
I miss drinking with you, how you'd be drunk and me taking you home. I miss the way you talk when you're drunk. I miss how you cling to me, or how you trip when you try to walk in a straight line. I miss how your head would rest on my shoulder as we sit side by side and watch the sunrise. I loved watching the sunrise with you because you would always say "Hey, another day to set things right!" and give me a warm smile.
You asked me why I memorize faces, looks, how people touch, etc. I memorize those and how they made me feel because I might not feel it again. I burn these memories on my mind so I can get back to that moment. Im glad I memorized your face, how you hug, how you sling your arm on my shoulder, how you smile, and how you look when you're shocked, sad, amazed, pissed, tired, mad, or in love. I just close my eyes and I'll see your face. I even remember how you let go of my hand when you said that we needed to stop being friends because your gf was getting jealous.
Mike, know that I'll always have you here in my heart. You still make me smile. Our memories still make me smile. Heck, I even miss you hitting the back of my head gently when I got back with Alenzo, while saying these: "Pet, why get back together with him? You told me before that he is NOT THE ONE! Dont be stupid, he will never change, love. Move on." You were the only one who said that to me. The only person who can see clearly. And thank you for telling me that. And thank you for being my bestfriend. I love you, Drummie.
Celebrating your birthday without you, well, not physically, but you're here in our hearts. You are dearly missed, Drummie. And for you birthday present, we'd be recording your fave love songs. And yes, I'll be singing some of our songs.
You know how much I miss you, right? And yes, I've made a lot of new friends. I'm doing okay, but can you believe that I'm a friggin teacher? LMAO. You were the only one who said that I can be a good preschool teacher when we were on our first years. Guess your hunch was right again.
I miss you, Drummie. I love you to bits. Sending you love everyday, are you getting it? ^___^
Love,
Pet
